My father found out about my mother's boyfriend. Saturday, when I saw him, he sent his best wishes for them both, that he liked ma's boyfriend very much and that he was happy for them... that he hoped they'd do well together.
I told my ma he knew, that he was happy for them, that they seemed a really good match and that he sent his best wishes.
She told her boyfriend.
That is why they argued Saturday, that is why she came home suicidal, and that is why they've now broken up... At least... that's what she says.
So, either her (ex-)boyfriend is a complete wanker who was using her and dumped her as soon as the relationship became known to her ex-husband. Or, she's blaming my dad for something he didn't do.
In the same way as he blames her for things she didn't do.
In the same way as they've both blamed myself and my sisters over the years... to give them a reason not to feel guilt themselves.
Taking all this into consideration, it's no wonder I feel guilt for everything... Even things I've never had any involvement in.
So, either her (ex-)boyfriend is a complete wanker who was using her and dumped her as soon as the relationship became known to her ex-husband. Or, she's blaming my dad for something he didn't do.
In the same way as he blames her for things she didn't do.
In the same way as they've both blamed myself and my sisters over the years... to give them a reason not to feel guilt themselves.
Taking all this into consideration, it's no wonder I feel guilt for everything... Even things I've never had any involvement in.